Unsent Messages

why did you do it? why? were you bored, lonely? was there a void that needed to be filled since the last girl broke your heart? we had such a good thing going, we were the best of friends and told each other everything. i wish we would have just stayed friends because then none of this would have ever happened. you left me for her... a hoe who's mouth is bigger than her heart could ever be. u ditched me for her and look where that got you... i spent the whole summer looking in the mirror and hating what i saw, wishing i looked like her. but I've grown, so many guys want me but i can't catch feelings for anyone else because you were always in the back of my mind. fuck you for making me believe in love. and even though you put me through hell and back... i still prayed for you, that God would look out for you and find you a girl who will always be there since apparently i wasn't good enough. after 8 months of hell, heartbreak, and healing... you came back and hit me with the "i miss you" and of course i said it back. but this time around it seems different. i don't think you want me the way i want you. do i fight for you? or do i let you go? God sent you back in my life for a reason and im not sure if i knew why yet. "don't go read the same book expecting a different ending". ima remember that quote.