Unsent Messages

This awful. Truly the lowest of the low coming here and writing a message you’ll never see. You don’t like cheesey shit like this nor do you like/love me anymore. But here i am writing this to you, weeks with no contact. Desperate for a sign of me missing you, to finally reach you. We started everything at my front door step. You hugged me, i felt your warmth the first time. You kissed me the first time, your eyes reflected our future instead of my reflection. You said you love me, the very first time. And i believed you. I wanted this to last forever but, now you love someone else. You don’t understand the pain i’ve gone through. I started this year off full of nothing but happiness. Now i am moving on to the next year with bittersweet memories and thoughts of you. She will never be me. She will never hold you, look at you, or love you the same way as i did. But something in me prays that she does better than i did. Although our love is unmatched. I will need to let go and love better and harder for the next. I wish you nothing but the best. I miss you and I still love you. If you were to text me, suddenly i’d be happy.