is first love even the right word? i think that i just desperately wanted to make you see me as a person. were we friends? do i hold any space in your heart or your mind? you were the first person that made me realize that i am only meant to be an afterthought. i am a last ditch effort when all else fails. you were the first person to put me last. i guess that i was always no one to you yet here i am sending an unsent message to you as my first love...