Unsent Messages

im gonna miss you so much when you leave. all my friends tell me to just tell you how i feel and i wish i could. school is going to be so hard. you are one of three reasons im there right now. i hate how i havent seen you at school in a month because of quarantine. i miss you and the way just seeing you could calm me down. im so ready for monday, hopefully we both get to stay for a while. its crazy to think that i met you in september, and by october you were already one of my best friends. there are times where i feel like im the only girl you see and times when i think im the only girl you cant see. i dont know why pink is the color i see you in, it just is. it seems like the right color to me. i could listen to you talk about cars all day long, simply because you get so excited and smile the whole time. its the cutest thing to me. gosh, my life is going to suck when you leave, and i cant do anything about that because i know that it will hurt me if i stop talking to you now just to get used to the distance that will come later. who knows, maybe im wrong and my friends are right. maybe you do like me back in the way that i like you. it amazes me how we could be in an extremely loud room and ill barely whisper something and youll hear me. it amazes me the things youve noticed. i love how you asked how i liked my marshmallows when you made me a smore because my hair was straight and i didnt want to have to wash it the next day. its all the little things you do, that make me like you. i want you to know, but i dont think i could tell you at all. so brayden, if you ever see these or any of my others just know, that i mean every single thing i say on this. youre my person, even if im not yours.