It wasn’t ever you. It wasn’t you when we were younger. It wasn’t you now. Especially now. I’m sure you know that already, but I wish I had had the chance to tell you. Nobody has ever looked at me the way you did. Nobody has ever touched me the way you did. Nobody was ever there for me the way we were there for each other. The world got to me before you did and I’m sorry you were always on the receiving end of that. I’ll carry your love with me always even though I don’t deserve it. I hope you do the same and use it to see what you do/don’t deserve. It was all real. I just finally lost my softness and the trust in myself to give it away. Thank you for showing me what I deserved even when I couldn’t accept it.