Unsent Messages

i know you’ll probably never see this, but i’m gonna write this anyways. i kinda want to talk to you and it just sounds so fucking dumb but i do. i would ask you probably a million questions so i could finally get closure. i just want to make sure we’re both on the same page and if we aren’t then i would really like to talk it through. it’s just when we pass eachother in the hallways or see eachother in class we don’t even acknowledge eachother anymore. it’s kinda sad. i find the thing that you said in english ironic. “my words are choking me” a metaphor, which kinda means that there are things you want to say but you don’t know how to say it or can’t say it. idk man. but i cant say anything to you because it’ll just make me look like i’m still trying to go out with you or something. i’m not and that’s not what i want anymore. i just want closure because you never really explained yourself. it left me feeling so confused and you knew that. i feel like an absolute bitch for unsending the apology. i want you to know i really did mean it, but i felt unheard and ignored when you left me on read and i figured you wouldn’t care if i unsent it. maybe part of me was expecting an apology back? i don’t even know anymore. i wish we could just be friends and forget what happened even happened.