It so hard to tell you how much you mean to me, I think you know. Did you mean it when you said you wanted to marry me? Or when you said that you thought I was pretty? Or did you really wanna do those things with me like you said in our facetimes? Or were you playing with me, because you like him better? I hate you but for some reason I don't think I could live without you. I want to be your girl so bad. Fuck you Julia. I'm not something you can experiment on. I hope you get yours one day.