I’m sorry I’m such a burden to you. I know you and mom would be much better without me because all I do is cause trouble and I’ve just become a hassle to deal with. I’m sorry I’m the reason you have such bad anxiety, because you had the responsibility of making sure I didn’t get into trouble at a young age. You deserved a better sister and twin. Sometimes I wish I could just build up the courage to kill myself or run away so you don’t have to deal with me anymore, but I’m too scared