Unsent Messages

I don’t regret getting with you but I do regret how I let u change me. U can say u didn’t take advantage of me but u did and u know it. U knew how much I liked u and that I would do anything for u and u didn’t care. All u cared abt was getting with girls and bragging abt it. U know what u did to me was wrong. I can’t believe I ever fell for ur lies, I should’ve seen how u treated ur ex’s but I was so in love with u I didn’t care. I lost so many friends bc of u: they tried to tell me what u were like but I didn’t listen. Why did u shag my bestfriend? Why did u ask me for nudes when u had a new gf? Why did u start talking to that girl when u were with me? Why did u lie abt talking to my friend and then try to get with me. Why did u one day start to ignore me? U broke me. I cried every night for a month when u left me on opened even tho 10 minutes earlier u told me how much you liked me. I used to go back and read our texts bc it made me happy remembering how much I thought u cared for me. I would probably continue to read them if they weren’t deleted. I hate u so much but at the same time I can’t help loving u. It’s been 10 months since we last talked but I see u around and everytime I do my heart aches. Everytime I see u talking to a girl my heart aches. It genuinely makes me want to die bc I sometimes can’t imagine my life without u. U fucked me up so bad. I don’t know how to love now. I’m so scared that everyone is going to lie abt liking me to get something from me bc that’s what u did. Why do u think it’s ok to use girls. It’s not. I hate u so much. I fucking love u so much. U have ruined my life and broken my trust. But if u messaged me again I would probably reply.