Unsent Messages

i think you know that i wrote this. when i’m doing okay with what happened i think about everything that i miss about you. and i start to feel stuck. because i cant change anything that’s happening. i cant change how you feel towards me or how i feel towards you. i don’t want you to know that i still cry over what happened. i don’t want you to know that i still go back in my camera roll and look at you. i don’t want you to know that i still go back and replay your voice messages. i don’t want you to know that i’m not happy without you. because if you knew all of that, you’d know that i still care about you sm. and it’ll keep you from being happy. i never want to keep you from happiness. i wish you the best with any one. if you ever need me or if you ever want to just fall asleep on facetime again, i’ll always drop anyone and anything for you. if you decide that you want to come back, i’ll let you in with open arms like i always do. you’re my person, even if i’m not yours. i’m letting go. i think me feeling okay with you moving on is the start of me letting go. i’ll always love you. for right now i need you to live your life, do whatever makes you feel alive because life is way too short. i’m so proud of you. if we’re really meant to be like we think we are, the universe will bring us back to eachother. but for now we have to let go and focus on ourselves and our friendship. until our time, i love you.