Unsent Messages

I think i’m just scared that if I be your friend right now, and only your friend, that you’ll lose all the other kind of love you had for me. and I really don’t want to be in love with my best friend who only sees me as a friend.

I’m sorry if that’s selfish. I still haven’t made my decision. because I want to be there for you however you need me to be. you’re still my best friend. but I also put everyone else before myself and i’m learning to get better at taking care of myself but idk what I need right now.

I’m gonna write you a letter soon. one that I hope you can read and re-read, and hold onto when you feel like things will never get better.

I don’t mind waiting for you.

I found an article that was talking about situations where a breakup actually leads to a much stronger and healthier relationship. and I believe that’s what’s going to happen with us.

I still get scared sometimes. but it’s weird - I think I finally get what “peace that surpasses all understanding” means.

I pray for you constantly. and for us.