this is so weird writing this knowing i could just text you, heatwaves type shit. i wanted to thank you for being my first relationship (and first with a girl) and how happy it made me feel. i’m so sorry i was so shitty to you near the end, i didn’t know what i was feeling and everything i was feeling was too much to cope with. i screwed everything up and i’m so sorry. you never admit i did anything wrong but that’s exactly why i feel so bad. i’m glad we are still friends but my god if you text ben one more time i’m gonna come to your house and slap you...in another lifetime loser