I'm glad you were the first but I'm scared you'll be the last. I'm scared I'll never be able to get over you because I still love you but I don't want you. I'm sorry for making such a big deal out of everything. I'm stupid and immature and I don't know how to handle my emotions. It's not fair to you and I'm sorry I have to put you through so much shit. Like you said, I'm an attention whore.