Unsent Messages

I know I hurt you bad, I’ve done everything I can to apologize for it. But I know thats not always enough. You say you forgive me, ( which honestly it’s fine if you don’t, I would understand) but I honestly don’t believe you, not with everything I know. You say you want to be friends but why? You constantly go off telling other people how much of a toxic crazy bitch I am, so why keep me in your life if you still believe that and if your still talking about me in that way. That’s not what “friends” are. I’m just generally confused why you would still want me even a little in your life. If you hate me so much then just fucking leave me alone dude. I’m bettering myself and I don’t need you coming around giving me reminders of how much I’ve fucked up. I’m moving on and you should too. I don’t need to prove myself to you, youre not my boyfriend anymore so I don’t need to tell you about all the things I’m working on. And if I’m being honest, I think your hurting yourself a lot more than you are hurting me continuing to talk about me like that and keeping me in your life if you hate me so bad. You need a reality check bad, just like you gave me. And btw, fucking around won’t heal you, getting a new girl right after the next isn’t gonna fix you. You say how broken you are and how you can’t trust anyone now because of me, so why are you jumping into all these relationships? You’re doing the exact same thing as I did with you now. Youre broken, but pretending to be loveable, when in all actuality you need some long hard alone time to actually deal with those problems that I gave you, not just ignore them with distractions. And plus you’re also really hurting the girls that might think they actually have a chance of have a super serious long term relationships. Your better than this, don’t break people bro, don’t do what I did to you. Be better