Thomas. I tried to find the closest color I could to lavender. When you dm'd me for the first time it filled me up with a joy I hadn't felt in a long time. I hope you understand that the joy I felt wasn't love but the happiness to have someone finally ask how my day was. You are a dear friend to me and I hope that despite the fact that we will most likely never be together, I value the relationship we do have. I'm sorry.