Unsent Messages

you know the first day we started dating i said to myself “i hope he doesn’t break my heart.” i always trusted my gut n my gut was telling me that you would never hurt me. but i learned that, that wasn’t true. sometimes when i think about you i try n convince myself that i don’t miss you but clearly i’m lying to myself. there was always these two things that you would do that made my heart flutter. you would always wrap your arms around me n you would send me the dumbest yet cutest good morning texts. when i really think about you n us i know we could’ve of gone longer. i used to wake up n be happy to be alive n be happy that ik you would text me but now i wake up every morning disappointed that i don’t have you. i’ve always been one to not be okay but when you left i was so much worse. you told me that you would never leave me for her but look where we are now. i guess i was never able to compete she was prettier n smarter n had bigger boobs. but it really isn’t about that it’s about how you get about her since day 1. she was your first choice n i was just backup ig. you guys had a better connection i guess. i won’t argue bc i always told you, “do what makes you happy” she made you happy. i’m hoping. i love you.