i fucked up. i know i did. and i really wish i hadn’t. i know it’s not the same anymore. it never will be. i did something that i never should have done. ever. im so sorry. i truly am. i wish i could tell you. i honestly wish i could. but i’m too fucking weak to do it. i am afraid to see what’s left. i am afraid of ruining your life by coming back into it. i miss you so much. i don’t think you know that. and that’s my fault i’m so sorry