i think about you far more than i want to, it's always painful when you cross my mind. i was so in love with you and i wish you could've loved me kindly. you always said you'd change and i kept believing you because you were all i wanted. but you didn't change. and i'm still stuck trying to put myself back together 6 months later. i can't hate you, i really tried for a while. but i hate what you did to me and i don't forgive you. i fell for you and still haven't gotten up and i have to carry that pain with me everyday. why do i still want the best for you