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giovanni, i don’t even know if you were my first love. you made my heart beat and made me shy when i was around you. i don’t remember, but apparently i confessed to you and you liked me back. i remember us texting everyday and then one day you texted me to say that you never really liked me and it was all just to play with me. that hurt man. really bad. i hated myself. i cant believe i liked another boy who was the exact copy of you. and when i confessed, i obviously didnt expect anything huge. he obviously didnt feel the same way, and for some reason i was fine with that. he told me that he liked me too, and thanks to you i obviously knew it was a lie. it was a lie. thank you giovanni for everything. i really am appreciative of showing me how boys can be like. thank you.