you smiled in the middle of music class today. my heart melted.
it's hard to explain, but i think i realized that i lose myself in relationships. i give up my ambitions and my goals and my hopes, because i really wanted to make you happy.
I avoid going to campus, because i think if i see you, i would run to you.
ian, i miss you so much. it feels like i put my heart through a garbage disposal.
this sucks.
i'm sorry i dont have the capacity for a romantic relationship and it's okay if you can't just be friends. i get it. i just don't want to lose you entirely.
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