Unsent Messages

I miss you. I send stuff here occasionally because it's the only place I can send things to and not worry about you seeing them. I'm doing well, I have a lot happening but for once I'm actually doing everything I said I would do. While I'm doing it for me, part of me is also doing it for you in a sense. I never want to hurt anyone in the ways I hurt you. I think you'd be proud of me. Like, I'm someone that you wouldn't be ashamed to know, I guess. Just, I loved you, too much. You're always on my mind, literally my brain somehow still associates a million and one things with you. I don't know why I can't just, stop thinking about you. I don't get it. It is what it is. By the way, I had green juice from Trader Joes the other day. Tasted like liquid kale. Can't catch a break. I hope I get to hear from you again, I never realized you could miss someone this much.