how could you leave us? the same thoughts linger at the back of my mind like there is no escape and all i feel is sadness on an endless cycle. it makes me re think why i am still here. it really did affect me. i want to disappear, i really do. i still ask myself if youre ever going to come back even though its been 5 years. 5 years and im still sad. i know youll never find this but i still love you even though i dont want to. my heart hurts, it really does.