i honestly didnt love you, so i left. when i did, i found out how much you really did love me- it was more than i bargained for. when i get lonely, i curse myself knowing that if i stayed, i would have had someone to call, someone to remind me that they're there; just someone in general. i ruined it for us and i regret it. i hope we can get older soon so we can meet at the airport and laugh about how stupid, how fucked this is. i hope by then, youre married and you have wonderful children because i can't handle you loving me again. i don't deserve the second chance fate or destiny has to offer. i don't love you; but i should have stayed.