Unsent Messages

hey...I know its been over a year and a half since we've truly spoken, but I still miss you. I miss all the little moments we had together and I suppose I now understand that a part of me will always be in love with you. To be completely honest, you seem like a completely different person, and maybe I've changed as well, but I still want to get to know you. I look back only actions from a mature standpoint and I understand that I was toxic. I would push you away when I was stressed, but I mainly did it because I was super scared of losing you. I loved you with all my heart. But I will also acknowledge the fact that you had difficulties understanding your own feelings. I apologize for my past actions, even if it doesn't change anything today. I wish I could just talk to you again, its weird to know that someone out there in the world that knew almost everything about me doesn't talk to me anymore. I will always be there for you, I just wish you knew how much I've changed.