From: ABC
To: Anorexia
Date: December 14, 2020, 1:44 am
I love you but you need to let me go, please. I can't keep doing this, because you are destroying me, and then I'll be better for a few months, and then you come back. You can't just keep coming back whenever you please, I need to get my life back. And if my life doesn't include a flat stomach or a thigh gap, that has to be enough. Please let that be enough. I've been trying so hard but you're stronger.
I won't eat tomorrow, okay? I can't eat if I'm over 120, and I ate so much today that I'll have to be over 120. I won't eat, and then you'll love me, okay? I'm gonna love myself. I'm sorry that I ate so much today, I thought it would make me happy.
I just need to remember how happy I felt when I let you help me. Nothing's ever brought me joy like when I'm on the right side of the scale.