Unsent Messages

When people say that being in love won’t be the same later on in life, they’re so right. Things have changed. I’ve changed. Maybe not for the better, but maybe that’s because you’re not here anymore. I feel ashamed and embarrassed; I broke our promise that we made sure we’d never break: “I promise I will be by your side forever” “I promise that I will be your best friend, and I will support you wholeheartedly for the rest of our lives”. Life is tough, but without you it’s even tougher. That feeling that I got before I met you, the one that told me that I should be scared to fall in love. The one that told me that I’m just not good enough. I’m getting that every day now. And sometimes it’s unbearable. I miss you. I’ve been wanting to say that for so long now... I miss you, and sometimes I miss us. I understand what happened between us, but I was the one that let us fall apart. I’ve grown, and I’ve gotten older. I’ve found new people, and I’ve created once-in-a-lifetime bonds with them... but no one will ever be you ever again. They don’t sound like you. They don’t smell like you. And they don’t look like you. But that’s okay.. Im not asking to get back with you, I’m just asking to see you again.. one day. Just one day, soon. I just want to hear you. And feel that you’re in my presence. Because that’s where I found love. That’s where I found peace. That’s where I found my purpose. And I will never trade those feelings I had for the world. I will never trade those perfect, wonderful, and heartwarming feelings I felt until the day that I die. And I hope you know that I’m here. I’m still alive. And even though I’ve struggled like never before, I still am haven’t left this earth. And I hope you know that I love you. I cherished those moments with us like nothing I’ve ever felt before. You will forever mean something to me. You will forever be something in my heart, no matter what this cruel world may lead you to think. You are such a special person. You are so different, unique, caring, and breathtaking. I hope you are doing okay. I hope you’re doing better than I am, because seeing you prosper is what makes me the happiest person on this entire planet. I’m so glad I met you... I’m forever glad I met you.