Unsent Messages

This will only make sense if I say it’s from ruby and still it’s a bit of a scavenge. But if your here hi I love you and I miss you. I’m so confused when it comes to you because I kinda really don’t like you ? but I also think about you non stop. I really wanted you to want me enough to not want to lose me but you never wanted me that much I guess cause LOOK how many times you’ve lost me HAHAHAAHHAHAAHAHAH it’s really not funny but I guess I’m grateful I’ve learned a lot. I still wanna keep learning things with you but your far away and idk if that’s good or bad because it seems like we just hurt each other Idk what I did to you personally but you always act like I’m a horrible person I think the Same about u but you should know why it might be because you always made me an option and always picked everyone else before me or maybe you only did that once and that one time was enough for me to never feel the same again or maybe I’m just mad rn but you don’t care either way because I’m here and your there and your fine and I’m not but it’s fine because I’m use to this and I’ve always picked myself up all on my own which is what I’ll continue to do but I just want you to know that I wanted the world for us and I wanted to do everything with you and when u met you I was so happy because I thought it was so easy and I was so sowrried about love for no reason because it was so easy to love you I wish it could restart but I don’t at the same time because it hurt so bad u hurt me so bad but I love you don’t feel bad qhhyyausgquauqsjwisn let me stop not I wish you the best even tho I really dread the day I see you with another bitch because I’ll want to light her on fire