Unsent Messages

I wish you loved me the way I love you. I dream of how one day we could be together but I know we would never work out. There is just to much history and too many obstacles in between. I want to tell you how I feel but I don’t want to ruin what we have. I love you so much that I rather have you in my life as a friend, than not have you at all. I just wish you didn’t occupy my every thought and every emotion. I wish you weren’t the first thing I thought of in the morning or the last thing I thought of at night. I just wish I could hate you, so that I could move on and get over you. But you treat me so amazingly, which makes trying not to love you impossible. Why do you have to be so perfect in every way possible? These feelings are killing me and I can’t even blame you for not loving me the way I want you to. I just hope one day you’ll see as more then just a friend.