Unsent Messages

We both fucked up so much with each other. I’ve grown so much and have become a better person from reflecting on my mistakes. I put in work to change. I’m just worried you haven’t done the same. I’m scared that if you haven’t you would put me back in the dark place I was before. I want to try understanding each other instead of arguing. I want us both to put down our “defensive walls” and I want to grow together. I think we just hurt each other because we’re too scared of letting each other in. But it takes strength to be vulnerable. I can’t leave things so bad and it’s clear you can’t either. I know I’ve hurt you so much and I never wanted to. You’ve hurt me too but I genuinely believe your a good person, you just need to accept yourself and understand you’re bigger than what’s hurt you. I pushed you away before because I was scared you were gonna put me through the same shit again that you did for months. I’ve been through a lot of pain in life but am now learning to accept it and grow from it. I hope you can do the same because I know you care about others. I miss you. I can now say I forgive you. I wish you the best and I hope we cross paths again because it wasn’t meant to end like that. I don’t want us to hate each other. You can always contact me- just be honest and vulnerable and I will too. I finally feel like Im strong enough to show you I care. I’m genuinely sorry for how I treated you and I forgive you for everything.