Unsent Messages

I was so dumb for thinking that you had the capacity of understanding my feelings, you misinterpreted them for weakness and naivety. I was more then just a 9th grader and we both knew it, but yet, you claimed you knew I liked you? Didn’t you know that I acted like that with all of my guy friends? I was so excited to have a guy friend, I was excited to be your friend. Because people like you never associate with people like me, but am I really just a game to you? Sorry, I meant was I really? And I know i do deserve better but I can’t help feeling, do you even know how much better I deserve? Or do you just assume I deserve better because you thought the only thing I wanted from you was a relationship? even our friendship was one sided because of your indulgence in pretending I was a nuisance to you. Every day, I would walk into that class and I would have the worst time, I hated that school but I wanted to make you laugh, to make you smile. It was my mission every single morning. I wanted to make you smile because you looked so plainly boring. You don’t even realize the friend you missed out on, Ryan. I wish you nothing but the best. And you really do deserve better too. I hope our paths cross again someday. Because I know anyone would be honored to have the Ryan F******e* in their life.