Unsent Messages

i'm back already. you wanna know what i miss. i miss the late night facetimes. the nights where we would dance until we fell over. when i would teach you how to throw it back, that was so funny. or when we would just sit there staring at each other. i never really knew what you were looking at. or what about when you would help me with my school work. that was the best. lmao remember when i turned in a picture of you for my flipgrid. or sometimes when we would just lay on our sides acting like we were next to each other. we were half asleep and had no clue what we were saying but it was still the best. one of my favorite memories was when you fell asleep. i mean i think. i still have no clue to this day if you were asleep or not. i kind of hope you were because i spilled my guts out that whole time. i also miss our emoji battles. somehow you always won. i mean i was a sucker for the heart emoji. you know today i was on the phone with my little cousin and she goes okay layna love you goodnight. and i went to my room and cried exactly 3 tears. each of them had a different reason too. the first one, because i hadn't heard that name since you would call me it. the second because i've heard you say that exact sentence before. and the last one, because i know i won't, most likely ever, hear you say that again. i'm surprised i didn't start balling but i don't really know. i really do think we're meant to be. i personally think that is what love feels like, what it looks like, and what it should be like. hey i know we're literally only in 8th grade but trust me when i say looking at you was, "looking right at the other half of me." anyways, i miss you a ton. and i hope we find our way back to each other really soon. i don't know how much longer i can handle without you to be honest. xoxo stay safe.