Why did you leave why didn’t you call or visit me and my siblings we missed you I just wanted to spend time with you and now I can’t because you’re gone why didn’t you stop drinking and remember you had kids why couldn’t you just came back I miss you so much all I ever wish for was to spend at least one of my birthday’s with you I’m turning 15 next year and I can’t do it I miss you so much and I’m sorry I didn’t go visit you in the hospital I regret it so much I hate myself so much I was just so mad that you left us I miss you dad