i feel like my heart is being crushed. i didnt know it would still hurt after this long. i cant tell if im hurting from the breakup or from the cheating though. one year ago today was a big day for us...one year ago tomorrow was our first kiss. it hurts. looking at the pictures hurt. i know i shouldnt. i looked at other memories i shouldnt have, things about her, and fuck i cant focus, but i cant afford to not focus right now so i just kinda have to suck it up and try to forget about it. i wonder how youre doing. i cant tell if its comforting or disappointing that i know youll never see any of these