Unsent Messages

you’re in my head a lot. there’s not a moment i don’t think of you. you’re just always there rent free it’s so sick. but to be serious I’ve realized a lot while weve been trying things with new people and experience new things that i could’ve done better. i realized that i left everytime i felt defenseless. i never even tried to stay and fix things. i constantly gave up on you and i don’t think ill ever forgive myself for that. ive grown and developed so much i wish you knew. i tried with another girl, but she wasn’t you. she didn’t bring the happiness you would bring to me. she’s the complete opposite of you, and if im being honest i hated it. but besides what ive felt, ive decided to not let my feelings be known. not because im scared but because i want you to choose what you truly want. i don’t want you to feel as though because i still love you that you feel the need as to return love to me. i want you to be happy, to flourish as the beautiful person you are. you have so many amazing qualities, i hope you learn to realize that. i pray that no one takes advantage of such an amazing person as you. sometimes i miss our silly dumbass calls, or when we watched movies together. i haven’t written any type of love paragraph since we parted ways. i haven’t written paragraphs at all to be honest, well besides now LOL. i miss writing you paragraphs. but it’s okay though. because even if we don’t ever get to try again, you made me grow as a person (not height wise though im still 5’2??) thank you for everything though. hopefully we can try again in the future. hopefully we are each other’s future. but if in the end that’s not what the universe has for us, i still hope you have the most epic love story with whoever it is. it’s what you deserve. hopefully they don’t like your middle name though, because that’s for me to appreciate and love only. no one else can like your middle name let’s make that clear. but anyway if you ever see this PLEASE AND I MEAN PLEASE DONT SS THIS AND SEND IT TO ME ILL LITERALLY DIE OF EMBARRASSMENT. IM BEGGING OMG. anyway ily praying you don’t see this