its new years eve. and ive convinced myself that i will be leaving you in 2020. it hurts, but i need to do this for myself. you hurt me so fucking much and never gave me a reason. you lied and said that you will wait and you love you. i gave you so much and i tried so hard to br perfect for you. you said you loved me. but i still love you and i dont think i'll ever be completely over you. but you hurt me. and honestly, im grateful because now i know how a girl should actually be treated and i can move on. thank you for the butterflies and the heartbreak. i love you. but i need to let you go. goodbye my first love. have a good life and treat the next girl right please.