I look back every now and then, wondering. Wondering why I ever loved you. You never seemed to notice me, but when you did it was like the world exploded. One touch and I'd feel it for hours. One compliment and I'd think about it for days. I wonder why I ever loved someone who gave me so much pain. That's why I chose dark blue as your color. Because you made me feel like I was drowning. Looking at you was like seeing the surface of the water drift farther and farther away. I just have a few questions. Did you ever, even for a moment, like me back? Did you ever look into my eyes and feel their honey colour coat your skin? Did you ever hear my laugh and wish you could have heard it on repeat? Did you ever go to sleep at night thinking of me? Because I did. Every day and every night for 3 years. Each moment torture, each moment agony.