I know you consider me just a friend, but I miss you. I want to be with you. I want you. And I have for four years. I've been waiting. And I know Melanie is so much better, even though you don't know she likes you either. I'm just terrified of losing you again. You mean so much to me. You're the only reason I smile everyday. You're my best friend, and I love you. I just wish you would tell me you loved me too. Even if it's not true. It's all I've every wanted. The worst part is, you don't even know that I've liked you even after you said we were just friends. I can't stop. You're like my other half, but I just wish I could be whole. You're the only person I can truly laugh with without being judged. Even if they're the small texts we send each other in class, they still mean the world to me. You mean the world to me. But, I know, I fucked it up. I ruined it when we had a chance. I know that you know I've changed, but I know you can't look past how I used to be. I know you'll never believe I've fully changed, but I have. I want so badly to cuddle with you as we watch any nerdy movie we both love. Maybe a Star Wars marathon? I would die to fall asleep in your arms. I'm so excited to see you this weekend, but I know I'm going to be so awkward, you know how I am. But it's not the usual, it's that even after knowing you since 6th grade, I'm scared to talk to you face to face. I hope we do talk though. That was basically the whole reason I wanted a get together in the first place. I wanted to see your amber eyes that sparkle in the bright sunlight, and your hair that reminds me of the times when you used to bounce up and down when you heard music. I had a dream the other day, that we were back in school without masks on, and nobody was online. You ran up to me, picked me up, and twirled me around. It was the most romantic thing I've ever experienced, even if it was a dream. It was like something you see out of movies. And then you kissed me. It wasn't a quick kiss, but a long and meaningful kiss. It made me love you even more than I thought I could. I wish that could really happen to me haha. Especially with you. What I'm just trying to say, is that I love you, and I wish you loved me too. Maybe you still aren't ready, but I'll wait for you as long as it takes just so I can be with you.

Hey. Do you think I'll get the chance to say I love you?

I love you, always and forever. I love you, my vijay roll.

you’re the best i ever had and i really hope we last