Nunca imagine que acabarías asi ojala nada hubiese pasado ojala te hubieses controlado, esto no es culpa tuya, se fuerte te quiero

When I see you my whole body freezes. My throat closes, I get this pit in my stomach. I can’t stop replying her screams in my head. How can you live with yourself. Every night I see her in the corner of my bed seeing what you did to her. I hate the fact that I still live with you. I hate the fact that you still think it’s okay. You ruined 4 innocent children’s childhood soon to be 5. Go to hell

you are my father figure.
when my dad and i didn't talk, everytime someone asked about my dad, i would answer that i'm not that talkative with him, but my uncle is my dad in my eyes.
you are going through some shit rn, and i hate not being old enought to be there for you. i just didn't know how to reach to you.
the other day when you answer me so quickly to my texts and asked me if i was okay at my house, and the way you cared for me, made me cry. because not even my parents are caring for me anymore...or at least they don't show it.
if i ever get married, would you walk me down the aisle? i mean i'm probably marrying my gf but you know what i mean.
i love you so much, you don't have an idea.
with love,
your older niece.