I really doubt that you’ll ever see this. Even if you do, there is no way that you’ll know it’s from me. I just thought that we had a special connection, like we were meant to be together. I always had hope that we’d find each other once we left this place, but now I know thats never going to happen. The hardest part of letting go was knowing that everything could’ve been different if I was brave enough. Now you’re just a distant memory. Thank you for making me stronger.

I miss you so much. I love you so much. What I have ever said was not lie. The good words that I said were always from my heart. You are lovely.

But I have ever said that I will be here forever

I just can't bear. I can't bear that the person I love and value much don't give back same value and love. I couldn't. Rather than decreasing my love I escaped. I did because it's uncontrollable for me. I still want to hug you. You are warm. Your warm hug...

I will never forget you. You will always be a part of my life. I don't live to forget. Love to forget. I carry. I'm strong enough.

Please , don't talk bad from my back. I really don't deserve it. Yeah we fought a lot but so ? My love is like that. I can't change myself that muchafter this age. I intervene.

One last thing. I'm from same place with your ex but I'm not like him. Not close. I didn't use you. It's not logical if you are thinking like that. I had no fcking benefits. Not only one.

I love you much. I will not forget you. And I miss you.

In the end who am I speaking to... I'm an introvert you are an extrovert person. You have many friends and you can get many friends like me. You can fill my place Easly. While you are precious for me I am just an other friend.

There for you should think it A. You should think how an introvert person bear this emptiness of his friend. To this pain-likely thing. There should be something. Something that push the introvert person to leave you A. This idea , my place will filled Easly , stops me texting to you and my feelings makes me write to under my own name to be covered. It's not being coward. If I'm going to talk to you , this feeling of being unworthy will burn me up all time.

And things you do to me of course northing else but excuses. But main reason is being low valued.