hi tonton, gosh where do i even start.. i loved you so much, too much probably. you changed my life for the better in so many ways, and i still think of you all the time. i still listen to all the mp3 files you sent me of you singing, i love them all so much - i listen to them everyday at this point lol. if you ever see this, for some unknown reason - i miss you, so much. i wish you were still in my life. i know its better for you that you arent, but i still wish you were - how selfish right? i started going by Ru again recently, after you and aaron i had to go by another name for a while but Im back now. I hope your streaming career is taking off just like you wanted it to. i hope you find the love you really deserve. I'll never forget you tonton. You were my happiness. Love always, your Ruru

ik you'll not be able to see this but i just wanna say i miss you so much.

I miss you darling