I just dont understand you say you love me and you know i love you. Why cant we just be together you say its because the distance and because its it might take maybe 6 years for us to see each other. But i dont care it doesnt bother me why cant we just love each other now until we cant possible love each other again. Why cant we just be with each other until you get too annoyed with me. Why cant we love each other now until you might find someone else who you want. Why cant i just have you now. My whole world is crashing i cant do anything without crying i just want to to be here and comfort me and tell me you love me and that im pretty like you always do. I dont want to be your friend, friend version of you is so much more different then the you i know. I just want you back and i want you to want me back. I look back on all the times where ive said cute things or done things and you screen record them through the phone. like when i sing or when sneeze or say ouchie my heart. when we were together it felt like there wasnt a thing in this world that i could do wrong to you. I was perfect to you no matter how i looked and now i feel like everything i do is wrong. You say you know it wont last but you dont know that. Its like saying you know that everyone dies so what are you just going to kill them and get it over with. no because you rather have them around for as long as you can. And i know you say were still friends but i just cant live with that. that just doesnt feel right and it just hurts so bad i dont even know what to do. Please just come back to me you big jerk. I love you and ill never stop. youre the only person ive ever met who it feels like you genuinely care and you stop what youre doing to make sure im alright. but tonight you just kept playing the game. And thats not you that i know. i love you so much Teg and i know theres not a single thing in this world that i can do yo make you come back to me but i really wish there was. Because i need you i really really really need you.