Unsent messages to SUSANNAH

Im sorry for everything I should have done things differently i will always remember watching cars

i miss you. lots.

i hope you see this. i hope you know how much pain you’ve caused me. i hope you know how you’ve dragged me to my lowest and how much you hurt me when you saw me get back and my feet. i hope you know how much you’ve wrecked my life and how much i struggled to put it back together. i hope you know i’d rather have been numb than have felt what you put me through. i may have joked about it as if it was nothing when really it seemed like everything. i hope you look back and realize where we drifted apart and that you realize you were the reason why. most of all i hope you never go through the pain you put me through.