I miss you, I miss everything about you. I still don't understand it because even after everything I still find myself thinking about you. Maybe it's the closure that I never got that's leaving me with thoughts and questions. Even then, I don't always think about why you did what you did. It's more of what could I have done so it didn't have to end so fast. I still think about the last time I held you, or the last time I saw that smile. It never fades from my memory, though I can't remember what anything felt like anymore. I can't remember what it felt like to kiss your lips. I can't remember what it felt like to hold you in my arms. I can't remember what it felt like to see your face right in front of mine. I can't remember what it felt like to be loved by you... as sad as it sounds I don't think you ever did truly love me. If you did then it wasn't the love I was hoping to get when I first met you and that's okay. I know in my heart there isn't a single thing I can do about it. Love isn't forced and it isn't to be manipulated into. Maybe you can grow that love for me someday but for now ill dream about it. Ill dream about the days we talked about having and the future we planned out. It still doesn't make sense to anyone why I'm still holding on, but I barely understand it myself.

I think i fell in love with you from the day i met you just didn’t realize till now, im done waiting