hey i miss you. not a day goes by where i dont miss what we had. i just want to hug you again. id do anything. but ik i cant and we will never be like we used to. why cant you just love me like you used to. i miss going to the mall and sharing an icecream. and trying on all the hats in hollister. i miss that. everything reminds me of you. the necklace, my stuffy, on my block, roblox, my hats, mall pretzels, obx and so much more. you were such a big part of my life and it absolutely breaks me even more when people say "werent yall bsfs" yeah we were. no more tho. sometimes i wish we never met. i will never recover from this or get over it. i miss you so so so so much and i cant put it into words. i want to be friends but you hurt me too bad to ever be the same. everything about you was perfect. your hair and how the light hit your face. your smile and how you laughed at my unfunny jokes. the songs we listened still make me sad. i remember when we first started become friends. i was nervous until you told me that i was your bestfriend casue i understood you. i remember when you sent me a video of everything that made me perfect. i deleted is by accident im fuckig stupid. i hate myself for that. i want that video right now. i think i still have the one i sent you. i have our necklace too. mine saying "i love you to the moon" and yours saying "and back" we bought them for $10 at claires. you took yours off a week ago. i still have mine sitting on my desk waiting to be worn again. it wont be, well at least not in a completed way. i miss you i wish things could be the same. i love you always. bye