i don’t know if you’ll ever see this, or if you’ll even know it’s me. if you do, i just want you to know this; you broke me. you really did, but somehow i still love you. somehow i know that if you called me up right now i wouldn’t have a second thought about restarting things. i know that’s terrible but i can’t help it. you are the first person i ever truly fell in love with. you’re the only person i’m in love with now. i can’t get you out of my head. i need you to know how much it hurt that you just cut me off without a second thought. it hurts to know that if you saw me in the street you probably wouldn’t even stop to say hi. but i do think i’ve been getting better. it still hurts sometimes, just less than it used to. but i’m really scared that i’ll always be waiting for you. i don’t want to be, but i think i will, even if i ever meet someone else. i’m also scared for next year, when it’s april and what would’ve been our anniversary passes, and then when it’s july and it’ll be two years since that terrible text you sent me. the worst part of it all is that i would forgive you. no matter how hurt i am i would forgive you if you came back.