I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that I treated you so horribly and saying that I was ok when I just wasn't. I should've never done that and I'm so sorry that it took me so long to understand that. I miss you a lot. I miss you so much you don't even understand. I miss your hugs and you asking me how my day was and how you talked to me about your friends and how other girls were swooning over you. I miss walking with you in the hallways. I miss being safe with you. I miss your stupid smile you would give me when I made a joke that wasn't funny but actually was really funny. I miss in class just talking and doing the work together and not knowing what the answer was so we would ask everyone around us. I miss our friendship, even though it wasn't good, it was us. I know we will never get back together, and that's ok with me. I just want you in my life and I want us to be at least friends. And actual friends not like tier one friends. I don't know if you want that or not. and if you don't I completely understand. But I couldn't keep thinking about you with out telling you how I feel. I will always always have love for you and I will always care about you. Even in like 30 years when we've both grew up and both have grown up lives. Until I die I will always love you. I'm sorry for taking so long to realize that. I know you've moved on already and it's too late. I've tried replacing you and I've talked to other people. I still look for you in every person I meet.

Hey, Patry I kinda miss you rn. even though i swore i moved on, i find myself missing you constantly