i don't mean with first love, love like this. would be weird you know. but you were the first thing that were here for me. we never talked, we never had a language to talk. my little snowball. you looked like a snowball. now you can rest with all the snow. or with the stars. you can be whatever you have ever wanted to be. but for me, you will always be my little one. you have no idea how many times you have calmed me down, when i needed to sleep, but i just couldn't. little clatter when you ran, little patter when you ate. now it is only me. just me, alone. i know you are not far away. depends, how you think about it. i use these two things: a star and a snowball. as a star you'll always be a safeplace to me, like you were before you passed. you'll show up at night, just how you used. sometimes still at morning, when i woke up. now it's only me and millions stars and little snowflakes. have a good night, my love.