Unsent messages to NRS

i wonder if you’ll ever find these. i didn’t give you any hints, just that it wasn’t under your real name. i sound ridiculous.

i still have hope, all signs point to it but you keep denying it. is it because of the way i brought it up? the way i told you i’d rather die than like you? probably. i’m sorry. i didn’t mean it at all, i just don’t want to be rejected.