Unsent messages to NAKIRA

I’m sorry for everything I hope you can forgive me if u get my message somehow. I was so weak in front of you, I was projecting, and I was in a lot of pain. Now I wish it wasnt you I had spoken to about it. I keep thinking maybe that way i would have clear answers. I bother you because I slip up and feel so hurt and it’s the closest I can get to the truth. But it’s not your fault.