I miss you. But you know that because you told me a few days ago and I couldn't help but say it back because I do, I do more than anything. You told me you missed me and I swear you didn't mean it and you just said it because maybe your friends told you to or because you just wanted to mess with my feelings but that just isn't like you. I know you wouldn't do that. I told my grandma about you, I was so excited to tell her that we were talking again because she liked you so much when we were together. But then a few days later when we were supposed to hang out and you hung out with the girl that used to be my best friend. I understand that you guys are friends but I still wanted to hang out with you and feel like someone actually cared. And you said that we could hang out that day and then it was like you forgot about me for her. I understand that she is just so much better than I am but seriously you know how self conscious I get about how I look and when I compare myself to other girls. You were the one person I told that to, and I get scared that you told her everything that we used to talk about. I know that there was stuff that you told her that I really hoped you didn't. It breaks my heart every time thinking about all of the stuff you guys have done because you guys are close even though we aren't anymore. I can't believe I talked to god about you. I cried about you. I told god how much I appreciated you. I prayed to god that you would finally stay with me this time instead of leaving me like last time. I prayed to god and my grandparents about you, and I went on and on about how much I missed you and appreciated you and how you said that you missed me too. It was so hard to see you the other day. I prayed to god that you would come back and when I thought you finally did, i was wrong. I tried to tell you how much I missed you and that I wanted to hang out with you and it seriously seems like you don't care at this point. Do you actually not care, or did you just want to make me look like an idiot in front of your new best friend. Did you think it was funny when I caught feelings again thinking that you felt the same way. I just want you to know that you really did hurt me. So please, don't come back unless you genuinely want me, because I am not going to end up getting my heart broken again.